Im hungry. I went to marketing class today, i like it here in the morning. I feel better, i saw him in the cafeteria at work yesterday,well i didnt. Hiddekel saw him first and she pushed me against him ( u know the classic,tv "oops i-did-on-purpose-but-not-really-push). I really was kind of surprised how she just pushed me and then i turned and i saw myself on his chest and was like "oh shit"...she didnt.

I immediatly turned and acted like nothing had happened, i bought my gum, he kept staring after what he told me last night as if...he was aroused or god knows what.

I just replayed the scene in the car with him the night before in my head, and i felt like crying again, i then just nervously payed for my gum and left walking really fast while Hiddekel walked behind me and said "Im sorry...i didnt mean to...he was looking at you".

We stayed quiet in the car and she said that she understood...then we both started laughing and she said "That push was perfect wasnt it?". I smiled and said, "Everything you do is perfect,bitch".

And i remembered how atractive and sexy i can be...but thats alright,ill just wait...wait for the right time.

I was talking to Eddy today, my sis's manager at work, here in campus, he teaches english, he is cool. He once told Sushi that he liked my lips, lol, but since he is respectful that thought didnt come to head while i talked to him while waiting for time to go to class.

Marketing class looks like its going to be a bit challenging.

im wearing some new pants, theyre hot...im becoming kinda superficial...the cosmo girl that i phisically never was...i lost weight guys let me enjoy it.

I found a guy at work that speaks dutch and yesterday i renewed my passport...isnt that great.

i hate to want him.i hope i get over this soon.im trying so hard not to think of him that it only makes me think about him....i have feelings to. I dont think he understands that. crazy how it can all be.

i think thats it...oh i have a dog. its a German Shepperd...his name is Rey...and u already knew about my parrot Pepe.

At 10 i have Publicity class, its my first time going there, i hope its fun...or at least as interesting as im expecting it to be.

Totally me, totally me!